Have I told all of you before how much i love worship/worship music/personal worship/corporate worship/and anything involving the music side of "worship"? Well I DO! I was thinking about the time i spent at KRT, my church in Brampton, and how much I LOVED those years there. It opened a new world to me of expression to God and what that looked like for me. There is something about those moments in worship where it really DOES NOT matter what kind of a week you have had, it doenst matter that life totally sucks right now, it is just this place of purity, safety and joy - it the most perfect place. I snotted on that carpet more times than I can count and met God there in such a overwhelmingly rich way . . . I am not trying to "relive the past", or "werent those the good old days" cause we all move forward and circumstances take us elsewhere but TODAY, I longed for that . . . I longed for Saturday night worship at my house with my girlfriends and Hodgie just strumming on her guitar . . . i longed for a Pastor Jeremy worship service, . . . i longed for the freedom to dance again, . . . i longed for release of the gifts of the spirit . . . and i longed to just be in my most favorite spot on the planet . . . just hangin out with Jesus in worship .I hope through my journey that I can worship regardless of where I am, who i am with or if the songs are right or not, so . . . i think tonight i will take some needed "worship time" . . . allow God to speak to me. To be totally honest, I feel i havent heard him for a while . . . and its NOT HIM, its me, busy, running, and filling time with stuff that isnt quite as important as my time with HIM. Ok, so I will stop writing now and well . . . stop . . . stop and listen and worship.
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oh the Jeremy rounds days (if only we knew then what we know now)
i am coming back to the heart of worship....
I am in a study now and we are reading "Fresh wind, Fresh Fire" and I am realizing what makes that worshipful attittude and atmosphere and it is about us realizing our need for him, more of him and nothing but. We are so blessed in our society that we loose sight of how much we NEED HIM. Someone asked me why I felt these so called mooves of God diminish in time and now I believe I see the pattern which is that we become so self sufficient and step away from that desperate cry for his help. It is truly amazing when we can realize our need so our worship extends to our every aspect of our lives. Its been a long time but I just pray now, show me again what you want to do and how you want to let yourself be known to me.
I don't know what to say.
Once again Vanessa...WOW!! I just love moments when a revalation totally takes over and you find yourself and the kids singing in the car, singing as loud as you can and you realise the windows are down.....and WHO CARES!!
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